The Seasons Change, And So Does My Mediumship.
Hello everyone! Yay, I am so glad you're back. In this blog I wanted to talk about some things that most mediums won't talk about, or share with their community, friends, family etc. I have heard no one get on social media, podcasts or blogs share these things with you -with us for that matter. It is just like how the seasons change and so does your connection, your mediumship, how things come in for you, how connected you feel. There is so much to this.
I was insired to share my story from another medium (Kori Kelly on TikTok) because we in fact share a lot of the same experiences. I thought I was alone in this, and that these shifts and feelings were unique to me and they aren't. Thank God LOL just like every other experience, there is someone out there with the same one, same parellel, same feelings.
When I First Started In Mediumship With My Heart Awakening.
I have been connected my whole life and have had countless experiences.
Shortly after my NDE car accident in 2018, There were a series of events that followed. Covid happened.
Questioning everything in my life happened.
Going through therapies, massage and chiro, physio, ablation etc happened.
Reiki Happened for the first time.
A Combustion of a heart awakening happened.
Healing my insides, my pain and trauma emotionally and mentally, forgiving family and friends and myself happened. (Is still happening thats a life long journey of peeling layers)
Finding 2 irreplacable, incredible mentors along my journey happened.
Practice, acceptance and understanding of my lifelong gifts happened.
Stepping out publicly happened.
Stepping out on to a global stage happened.
I will never forget the very first day of my heart awakening and opening. I had gotten up that morning with a plan to head to the bakery to pick up some things for my RMT kid's to enjoy, and then go to my massage appointment. My Massage appointment was incredible, I had raindrop therapy offered to me on my spine. And she had done a mixture of highly intuitive massage and reiki. The last thing she did was hold her hand over my heart space on my back. She said she didn't know why she had to be there, but she was pushed to sit there for awhile.
I could see purple and green colors swirling in my eyes and while I didn't understand it, I stayed calm and accepted it. When she left the room, My heart started beating harder, louder. Not faster but with purpose. Like it was trying to knock down walls.
I went in to the next room for my chiropractic visit after, and when he walked in the room I could see with my eyes, flowers floating off his auric field. They were everywhere. This was an absolute first for me, it was so strong and vivid. And I blurt it out " Hey, you have flowers floating off of you, everywhere, it's a nice energy" He replied with "Thank you, I love to garden" and we finished my visit while I was in my head pondering how this was all happening in a new way, different than my lifelong connection and what it all meant.
My heart still beating with purpose I drive home, and I was pushed to meditate. So I grabbed my Piggly cat, (Yes, my cat will lay just as I lay and meditate with me LOL) my earphones and yoga mat. I got in a super comfortable laying down position, covered myself with a blanket and started a meditation. The entire 25min, my heart got louder, harder like it was working through concrete and nails, wood. Super focused and on a mission. I got up feeling really good, really open and joyous. And as the day went on, it got bigger, louder, more vivid and bright the colors around me were blinding they were so bright. My joy couldn't contain itself and it began turning into BLISS. Water? Bliss Arguments? Bliss.
My son came home from school, and my husband eventually came home from work and we decided to go out for a movie and dinner as it was a Friday night. I was feeling so beautiful, blissful and at the same time completely raw. The minor disagreement that was being had in the car was like sand paper and I asked them both to stop it, It was hurting my heart and that I was feeling so so good I wanted a happy and joyful car ride meal and movie, and the tears started coming so freely. Not because it was hard, but because everything was so beautiful, the ride, the smells, my family, the disagreement - all of it. I tried to explain this to my husband and son LOL and they kept looking at me with big question marks over their heads.
We went to Joey Tomatoes that night. I'll never forget it and I'm sure the people who were in the restaurant the same time as us will never forget it also LMAO hahaha!
We were sat by the host, and I was in complete and utter BLISS at this point, my heart had cracked through whatever it needed to because HOLY FUCK you guys. My clothes felt sensual and perfect and beautiful, I felt stunning and sparkly inside and out. The booth we were sitting in was perfect, the iced water? BLISSFUL. I hadn't eaten much after my appointments I was waiting to share a big meal with my family and I had no idea what I was in for... Good God. I ordered a steak. And now we all know chain restaurant's have a lot of pre packaged food prepared quickly. Well no matter here. My steak came out, and as it was placed in front of me I was clapping, and groaning and moaning. The view and the smell alone were so BEYOND WORDS, so now it was sounds and pure un adulterated JOY. That steak, was THE BEST FUCKING MEAL I will eat, and have ever eaten in this lifetime. I cried, I yelled at how amazing it was, moaning and groaning through the whole thing. The people were all staring and while my husband and son were a little embarrassed LOL I did not care. I shared my meal with them, and they did not understand my reality with it. My heart was bursting with this high vibrational energy. I could push it out to others, I could share it. This lasted for 4 months straight. Could you imagine?
The Seasons Change, And So Does My Mediumship.
As the seasons of my life started to change in such big ways, so did my mediumship. In the beginning of my awakening I was so connected it would make your head spin. Talking to Spirits, showing them their way Home. I was talking to God, and my team that were training me all on my own as I was working at my own cleaning business at the time. They would guide me, ask me to do specific things. Tell me to stop suddenly, drink water etc. I was learning how to listen very closely not just with my claireaudience but with all my senses, and all I am.
My dreams were so vivid. I would be poked in the arm through meditation. I could feel them removing things, and putting things in. Hell, one time I was trying to nap, and they poked me in the head so I would pay attention to the thought that I had to call my mentor. I could feel them around me, guiding me, joking with me. Teaching me so much about who I was, where I was going and how it would all look like. Lights would flicker on and off, water would run, they would turn on my jet tub at 2am LOL the syncronicities were flying constantly -I felt so connected, it was so magical. The way I read for people, how it came through was SO VIVID and clear whether it was through sight, sounds, minds eye, music, pictures and videos. This went on for years, and then it started to shift. It felt like it was tapering off.. leaving... integration, embodiment... It just became me.
I've come to learn that my gifts ebb and flow like the ocean, the sunrise and sunset, the phases of the moon, I too come in and come out.
The longer I've been working with my psychic abilities' in a full time capacity, practicing daily... The less connected I feel, the less tangible the information and the connection to the spiritual world feels. My mediumship feels different every time I do it. This is definitely not a linear process, there are always peaks and valleys here homies, or as I mentioned before the phases of the sun and moon, the oceans.
What was once vivid, raw, overwhelming and so magical has shifted and integrated in to.. it just is. It's a part of me. In some readings the Spirits from the other side use energy strongly and things come through very clear, precise, colorful. I can smell things, see it all so clearly and these readings leave me feeling so high, and grounded, overjoyed and content because WOW... And in other readings, they struggle to get their messages across and it may come in completely different than the last. One may be all pictures, one may be all words and full on sentences. One may not be a big communicator in life and translates to the Spirit on the Other Side.
I can have big incredible sessions, and I can have ones that felt like a struggle. Both are normal and both are okay.
It feels... mundane, less tangible sometimes if I'm being honest. I sit down and its just there, with no "Magic" lets say (From how it started to now is a huge shift) and things aren't as vivid, blissful, colorful as it once was. It is now just a part of me, seamless and normal, interwoven. And who says that alone, isn't magical?
Sometimes it could be mistaken for a disconnect in your connection. And that let me tell you that - that is not it, at all. I am incredibly connected and so are you. It's how it all constantly shifts, changes, grows. Goes into a cocoon and comes out bigger, different and clearer, sometimes with a new skillset added (My mind's eye Tarot and Cartomancy LOL)
Yes it does feel like a struggle sometimes. and yes, some are so incredibly on point and synchronistic and ALL LINED UP right down the dogs name, and the bracelet you were told to wear to their reading (Odie was the dogs name, and my son gave me an Odie friendship bracelet weeks before I was asked to wear it heading to a session, where there was in fact a real life Odie!)
So, from one Psychic Medium, to all of you. It's okay to not feel the magic. And it's okay to not have the synchronicities and events all lining up and unfolding in front of you. and you're normal if you're feeling like you've been disconnected, because you haven't. It becomes such an interwoven part of who we are. And I'm honored, and grateful and overjoyed that this is a part of who I am!
Thanks for joining me today, I hope you enjoyed the blog!
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